My Life At Crossroads - 2 of 2

Oct. 08 - Nov. 08 was a crazy time at CBC for me and my family...

I was laid off from CBC at the end of October because the church was over staffed and there is NO MONEY! They said it was NOT because of my performance but that's what it felt like. Student Ministries was growing, THRIVING, AWAKING and we were having fun! God has a perfect plan and I'm resting in Him.

I have taken 10 days to write this post because I want to be wise with my words. It's hard to speak positive when I'm hurting. It's hard to look to Christ when His church is disappointing me. It's hard to keep my head up when I truly see who loves me and my family. I sit and wonder, was the last 4.5 years worth this? Was the last 10 years worth this? DO I want this again from another church???

YES...it was all worth it! The relationships that God has allowed me to have these last couple years will last a long time. I know who my friends are and who loves me. I know that Jesus loves me more than anyone and he DOES NOT disappoint! People suck! I suck! God is in control and trying to use us, despite ourselves.

I look to Him for everything. I know that He has and wants the best for my family. This is His perfect plan and for me to question Him and His actions is silly.

I want to thank everyone that I have had the chance to serve with over the years. I look back on what God has given me and I praise Him for every step. Starting with Eric for loving me. Frank and Ben for putting up with me. Doug for being Doug. Chris for taking a chance on me and seeing something in me that I couldn't see. Jordan for being the MAN! Danhole for sharing your heart. Ryan for making Student Ministries better! My admins for doing all my work:) All my students for letting me serve them and putting up with my bad jokes. God is GOOD! Thank you.