Have Faith!

	In the morning, as they went along, they saw the fig tree withered from the roots.
	Peter remembered and said to Jesus, “Rabbi, look! The fig tree you cursed has withered!”
	“Have faith in God,” Jesus answered.
	“I tell you the truth, if anyone says to this mountain, ‘Go, throw yourself into the sea,’ and does not doubt in his heart but believes that what he says will happen, it will be done for him.
	Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.
	And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive him, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins.” Mark 11:20-25 SO after Jesus and his boys stay in this town they get up in the morning and leave. Peter says, "hey Jesus remember that tree you said would never bare fruit, it's dead!" Jesus just says, "have faith in God!" It's just weird to me that these guys that have been following Jesus still are amazed by what He does. Yeah they are human but they are walking with Him. I wonder who I would be if I was around when Jesus was around??? SO yeah...I sit here on my soon to be Betsey's old computer writting about how lame these guys are. But I look at my life and still have questions. Jesus says, HAVE FAITH IN HIM! Why is it so hard. I want to have faith like Jesus wants and expects us to have. Knowing that when He says something is going to happen...it's going to happen! When He says NO...it means NO!!!!!!!! It's easy to sit and type but being out and living this...that's where the rubber meets the road.  SIDE NOTE: I love Andrew Zimmer and his Bizzare Food...he just drank lizard infused sake! God please give me the faith to live in this world. Let me walk, run and fall into ways that I can have my faith tested. I know that when I am tested I learn. I sometimes don't know why I ask you things I ask you but I know that I need to. Slowly make me a man of faith and let me be an example to the humans around me. Make me strong! Make me bold! Humble me!

I'm glad I'm not rich?

Jesus looked at him and loved him. “One thing you lack,” he said. “Go, sell everything you have and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me.” At this the man's face fell. He went away sad, because he had great wealth. Mark 10:21-22 SO this guys comes running to Jesus out of humility. Jesus is probably trying to call him down and try to understand him but after running...I know...he was probably gasping for air! Settling him down I think that he was expecting a different answer and it's just weird not hearing what you want to hear. Now I ask, what was Jesus trying to teach him? Jesus is always teaching and trying to make us understand, but we are stupid. This guys face FELL when he heard that he was suppose to sell everything. Who knows if he did??? SO if Jesus is teaching us something all the time, what is He teaching us right now? Or, right now? Or, right now? To sit here and try to hear from Him and walk away without our face falling? We were talking about Jesus and His teachings today and there is so much he wants us to hear and do. He wants to meet us where we are and speak to us exactly what we need to hear. I know that with every situation He wants me to hear something...I want to be open to that! God as I prepare for the next big thing, let me be able to sit and see what you really want from me. I know that you are teaching me something with everything that I touch...please let my face shine your face. I know more times than not, I am like the man with the falling face and I want to turn completely around. Clean my ears out, clean all the eye boooogars away, take away all the weeds and let me serve you and die for you each day!

I love Cluck U...and my wife!

So Pritam and I just came back from Cluck U and it was so good. I have been really good this week with eating and working out but tonight was good and bad! Yeah the chicken is always good and HOT! Yeah the ranch tastes like heaven...I don't know how heaven tastes like but that what I think! The food is just good...late night food is always tasty! 

Oh...I love my wife! I can't sit here and talk about food and not say anything about her:) She loves me even thought who I am. She is a great mother and wife and would trade her in for anyone...:) We are coming up on 5 years and that's just crazy to me. She hasn't tried to kill me in my sleep and no knives have been thrown my way...thanks babe!

Good night!

Die to find life?

"If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me and for the gospel will save it. What good is it for a man to gain the whole world, yet forfeit his soul? Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul? If anyone is ashamed of me and my words in this adulterous and sinful generation, the Son of Man will be ashamed of him when he comes in his Father's glory with the holy angels." Mark 8:34-38

These verses are crazy! If you want to save your life you will lose it? Saving it for the gospel??? Yeah but how do I do this? This section I have been stuck on for a year now. Not cause I read slow but just trying to lose my life to save it. It just makes me think and how God wants us to be sold out for Him and only Him. 

I want to live my life looking for ways to DIE! Die to myself and have CHrist as the only thing that I live for. I have so much in my life that clutters up and I can't see God clearly. I want to live life to the fullest in light of Christ but how do I do that? How do I lead my boys to that heart. How do I lead my wife to that heart. I need the biggest help with my heart and just making it pure day after day, minute after minute and yes...second after second. Just because I'm a "pastor" doesn't mean I'm perfect:) I want to be pure, loving, kind, encouraging, the perfect husband...everything under the sun, moon and Cluck U! 

God mold me into the man you want me to be! I never want to be able to say I'm done growing and dying to myself. I want to see you in whole new lights and hear from you in whole new ways. Make me a great husband! Make me the man my wife needs! Let me take the lead and show people around me who I really am...in you! I want to serve you and love you more and more...thank you for this week and everything that you have been showing me. I thank you for the cross and sending that son of yours! Thank you!